I am only going to address this once as I feel it needs some addressing.  First, I will start off by saying that this blog is for ME.  It is a way that I have learned to express MYSELF and I have always done this in one form or another whether it was a journal when I was younger or a blog now.  I enjoy helping others and entertaining others, yes, but that is not my number one priority.  So, now that is out of the way – I will continue.

Apparently there will always be those within this community that require a driver’s license to prove who somebody is or they will analyze every word expressed and find every inconsistency to try and disprove somebody because…well…I am not sure why.  What some people don’t understand is that I have a professional life outside of this ABDL life that is a million times more important to me than this.  My family, my career, and my life in general is more important to me than the ABDL side of things.  There are some that just don’t care and that is fine but just because others aren’t as “open” and “flaunting themselves” to the community does not make them fake.

I am admitting right here that on this blog – there are a few “exaggerations” describing ME because it is a way to protect my full identity.  This is mainly restricted to my true age and my full occupation.  While I did not lie, I have stretched it a bit to protect myself.  If that lets some of you down then I am sorry…I could just as easily said early to mid 20’s for my age and it is the same thing.  While, I am open about my incontinence for those who need to know around me in my life – I of course am NOT open about the ABDL part of my life which I am sure some of you can relate.

Now, I think I will take the time to address pieces of a thread that someone (not going to call anyone out as that is a bit immature) wrote in regards to me and I will just quote each piece.

She claims she wants to create a better community for ABDLs, but all that blog is doing is putting “pussy on a pedastal”, if I can please quote a movie.” – I resent that and I have tried to make my blog tasteful and in a good light.  I don’t post pornographic photos at all.  My posts do not even resemble stories most of the time and are more just my thoughts, opinions, etc.  I hope my blog does not come off too much as distasteful because I try very hard to keep it clean and light-hearted.

I find it seriously doubtful that a woman would expose herself like that ever in this community for fun, having been a girl into this for a long time.” – Obviously, this person is an expert and knows me better than I know myself.  Plus, I don’t think I have really “exposed” myself as much as many others have or would like me to.

It is written entirely with males and money in mind.” – Seeming as I just put up Adsense on my blog in the last week and a half basically which if it is that much of a problem I can remove.  I have had this blog for basically 2 almost 3 years and never asked for a dime.  I don’t write my blog to gear it towards men – my posts are meant to be tasteful and helpful.  Unless I was writing something about fairy dust and barbies, then anything I write CAN be said I am gearing it towards men.  I am just trying to express my thoughts which is hard in itself and I have a lot of trouble a lot of times coming up with what to write.

There is NOBODY in this community who can truly vouch you are who you say, and for being as well known as you are, that to me adds up to faker.” – If nobody can vouch for me then I am OK with that.  I am not out to prove myself to anyone in this community.  I enjoy helping others, expressing myself, and talking with those that don’t always just want to talk about diapers.  If I am a “faker” because I don’t show my face in my photos or go on a webcam to prove myself to someone in this community that I will most likely NEVER meet or have anything to do with – then, FINE…if you want to call me a faker than I can live with that.

Look, my main point here is that diapers have been part of my life since I was born basically.  It is a big part of my life in one sense but in other sense it does not rule my life.  I protect myself within the ABDL community certain ways so as not to jeopardize too much of my true identity in case someone in my REAL life decided to look me up or research me.  I would never want my career, family, or life jeopardized because of the ABDL community of all things.  To some it may be worth it but to me it is not.

So, if you want to think I am a “fake”, “liar”, scammer, whatever then fine.  Don’t read my blog and just leave me alone.  Easy as that.  I am not going to waste my time anymore trying to ward off the doubters…if you want to doubt me or whatever then that is your own decision.  I am not forcing you to read my blog or look at my photos.  This whole circle of mistrust in this community just gets old sometimes since I don’t flaunt my face to everyone on my blog or live on the forums so that everybody knows me….I choose to spend my time more productively in the real world and not on the internet.  It is just my choice.

FOLLOW UP: I was actually banned from the forum for supposively lying about my age which is where this whole thing went down.  That is OK though because I never hung out there or posted there but like 5-10 times since I was a member and I came to find out it is filled with underage people which I prefer not to associate myself with so I steered clear of that forum.  I guess you can’t please everyone.

2nd FOLLOW UP: I had to add this.  Somebody stated on the forum that basically salts in a saline solution would not play to the advantage of a more polymer filled diaper compared to pure water.  This is ignorance at its best.  Look anywhere online and anyone can tell you that polymers are more effective at absorbing a saline solution than pulp is.  I can’t believe some of these people’s thought process.  OK that was mean…I’m sorry..

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  1. Susan August 20, 2009 at 9:06 am - Reply

    That line of complaints you got sounds like someone that is disappointed. As a woman (age 30+) I’ve been around for a while, I can only say : ignore and/or ban. Don’t let them spoil your day.

  2. ziggy August 20, 2009 at 9:19 am - Reply

    Kick ass! I cannot understand why someone would fake something like this. It costs alot of money to start with. Secondly people follow religion blindly yet never question their beliefs and how strange they are e.g A burning Bush, 2 of every Animal in a boat and walking on water.

    People are just fools, keep up with your blog I love it and Please Adrian join my school of magic group on facebook

  3. ClosetDL August 20, 2009 at 9:44 am - Reply

    Obviously those people are of a very small group. I know that a vast majority of the people who read your blog feel nothing like what you stated. I am glad you are continuing to write and ignoring those haters out there. Keep writing and we will keep reading.

  4. r0bin.0 August 20, 2009 at 9:46 am - Reply

    It still leaves a bad feeling to loyal readers of your blog that the (maybe strange) points which were brought up cannot be proven to be right or wrong. (I’m not really a big reader of your blog, btw, although I remember seeing the site before and I have a habit of reading a lot when I find something new)

    Personally I’d ask other high profile members of the *B/DL community (like people who have met many other *B/DLs in real life, or who run or moderate a non-profit board) to validate that I am who I say I am (by webcam chat, meeting up, whatever). This isn’t easy and it’s certainly a lot to ask for, but the “AB/DL community” has had so much drama in the past with stuff like this that it would really be nice of you to do so. It only creates tension in the community where it’s not needed.

    I can relate to this not being a huge part of your life, and the need to keep your AB/DL side separated from your “normal” life. You don’t really endanger that if you choose wisely with whom to meet up (Moderators from popular non-profit sites, people who have written a lot of ABDL stories, well-known couples in the community, etc) or chat via webcam. Things like showing a drivers license are not needed and insecure in proofing anything if some of the accusations brought up elsewhere were true.

  5. Adrian August 20, 2009 at 10:01 am - Reply

    robin.0: Consider this…I cannot help if some people choose to take what I say or things about me to heart. I can’t completely put myself out there…it is not worth the risk to me. I have never met anyone worth meeting close by…as you said “moderators”, other couples, etc. I would kill for a couple to be close by to hang out with…I swear to God I would love that. But, I am very cautious with whom I choose to meet or put myself out there beyond my normal limits because its always a risk. I just don’t feel the need like you or others to really prove myself. If someone wants to doubt me then I am willing to live with that.

  6. r0bin.0 August 20, 2009 at 10:18 am - Reply

    That’s a valid point. Choosing somebody to meet up wisely can’t be done in an instant, anyway. I just thought about this whole “trusting more or less anonymous people on the internet” topic a lot and thought I might provide some thoughts of my own to the topic 🙂

  7. Jks16 August 20, 2009 at 10:27 am - Reply

    Well I am a fan you know. I like your blog because it is the only tasteful diaper-themed blogs I have ever read. I can also understand your need for keeping yourself anonymous. I would not want my company nor clients to know about my baby life.

    You need to protect yourself first and foremost. Then I hope you continue sharing your wonderful stories, because they are encouraging to me and a lot of other people. Even though you get a few bad apples, I think most of us are really glad you are writing this.

  8. Adrian August 20, 2009 at 10:34 am - Reply

    Jks16: I was unemployed for the longest time only being able to work small “this and that” jobs basically a year or so ago and it was miserable. I finally landed what I consider now a dream job at a local pharmaceutical company and I am working my way up in a sense. My career and family are my most important things to me. I am not going to jeopardize even a portion of that to prove to a handful of people by exposing myself and telling every intricate detail of my life.

  9. Miakoda August 20, 2009 at 11:34 am - Reply

    I like your blog. Even though I am very open, I don’t consider you fake for being more secretive.

  10. Andy August 20, 2009 at 1:02 pm - Reply

    Adrain, there is nothing to say that you have to tell the truth on this blog or even that you have to lie. So long as it is tastefull, which it is, then I don’t see any problem with keeping some details to yourself. I would be exactly the same. I would say to those that are insisting on your identity, why don’t you post a photo of yourself on an internet site with you work deatals and location your and your address. As I can see 90% of the people on this blog use either a shortened or different name anyway, so aren’t we all doing exactly the same as you Adrian. Like Jks16 said, only 1 or 2 bad apples in a big barrel. I really enjoy what you write. It’s much better than the rather more seedy sites aimed at people who enjoy the sexual side to ABDL. Personally I much more enjoy the more real side of things and the enjoyment it brings. Thanks for your efforts and keep doing as much or as little as you want.

  11. jr August 20, 2009 at 2:22 pm - Reply

    I have been looking at this site for a few days reading through it. I have finally found a site that seems real, and that says alot. Most of the other sites you find are definitely to far fetched to beleive and the rest are just not my cup of tea. It is refreshing to find that there are people out there like me and I havent gone insane or been that way for the largest part of my life. I dont care if I ever see her face or any other pics for that matter, although they are easy on the eyes compared to other stuff floating around the net, as long as she keeps it up with the attitudes that there are those of us who are not weirdos. I have been happily married for 15 years and have 2 wonderful children and work a fulltime job to keep them fed. that is all anyone should need to know. She has put more than enough about herself on here. I just hope she keeps the site going and keeps up her positive attitude which has been very refreshing.

  12. DL from Austria August 20, 2009 at 2:36 pm - Reply

    Hi Adrian!

    I really like your blog (it is one of 4 diaper-related websites, which I visit really frequently (several times weekly)) and I can absolutely understand that you don’t want to show your identity.
    To me your blog seems authentical enough even without that I know your exact adress, real name, your face, etc.
    I think that already publishing this blog is much more than most ABDLs show about their private live. I wouldn’t have the time and energy to run such a blog about the DL-aspects of my life; and even if a had – I would never tell my real name or so on the internet. It is much too dangerous (regarding job, friends and family).
    Of course I also sometimes think that it would be nice to meet with you and talk to you one day, just because I think that you are a nice and intelligent person, but – apart from the geographical distance – of course I understand your concerns, as I think in the same way (haven’t yet really seriously tried to meet any other DL).

    So, please just keep blogging as you did in the past – I will enjoy it!

    Have a nice day and best regards from Europe


  13. Michael August 20, 2009 at 3:45 pm - Reply

    I think this blog is very tastefull and is very well written and desinged website unlike other AB sites with those horrible horrible phone mummy ad’s or nasty Diaper pic sites…..and also i think it’s very good of you not to plaster MAKE DONATION TODAY all over the site wich is very great because this site must cost a alot to run but if you did put a make a donation thing you would get couple of donations

    and about the whole must show your face prove who you are is aload of rubbish i bet that 99% of AB’s & DL’s would never show there faces because of the bad press this community gets….everyone tells little lies about themselfs in the AB community but the only thing i wont liek about is my AGE and GENDER because if one of my off the net friends was to stumble across my profile and thought it was me i would just say it’s not because some of the info is wrong…..

  14. DC August 20, 2009 at 6:18 pm - Reply

    I don’t get it. People can either accept your blog at face value and enjoy it or go write their own. Who cares what your face looks like? I applaud your stance on this and see no reason for anyone’s desire to “out” you to impact you in any way.

    And who and where exactly are these so-called well-known people in the community? It’s the internet, everyone’s anonymous.

  15. Ryan August 20, 2009 at 8:12 pm - Reply

    People that bash you or attack you over a huge world wide web don’t deserve to be in the community and should just keep to themselves. I don’t see why these people have the absolute NEED to communicate with other ABDLs and share pictures, but i can understand why these people wouldn’t want to be DECEIVED. It’s really hurtful to think about a person you share inquiries and communicate with to turn out to be fake. I don’t see what you could possibly gain in faking, and why you would in the first place.

    The internet these days has become a place where a person’s real life becomes separate from their virtual life. Online communication should never come into or be compared to your real life ever. This includes people saying “Ohhh, i can beat you up in real life”, or “we should hang out sometime”, but this is the INTERNET and is completely separate from what we do. What we ARE doesn’t change, but what we can and can’t do on the internet is completely different. These people are bringing their real life into a forum or a chat source, which should never be done because it is most likely fake and can’t/won’t be proven.

  16. Sean August 20, 2009 at 10:43 pm - Reply

    Don’t let it get to you. There’s always going to be at least one jerk in every crowd.

  17. Crinkly August 21, 2009 at 12:01 am - Reply

    I love reading your blog Adrian, and find your thoughts very interesting. A few of them even mirror my own when it comes to the fun of wearing diapers. And the need to keep some anonymity is well understood among the community.

    So, I appreciate your efforts, which I think the majority of your readers do as well.

  18. Kyle August 21, 2009 at 12:40 am - Reply

    Damn! Sounds like shit went down. I don’t who those people are but….. jeez what jerks(I’m trying to cut back on cursing)

  19. J August 21, 2009 at 1:54 am - Reply

    AH been there heard that, as soon as they discover that you are female You get a ton of marriage proposals and alot of haters that claim to know you are not a female, and some who have the nurve to as for ‘proof’ pictures.
    but sometimes I can’t blame them if I see males like riley fooling others in to thinking they are female, boys are just not as mature as we female and they will never grow up.


  20. Matt August 21, 2009 at 2:03 am - Reply

    Adrian… This is your blog and your life… Dont worry about what someone who you dont know and will never meet thinks or says. I wouldnt have even given them the time of day or satisfaction of posting a blog about their stupidity.

    Good luck and take care…


  21. Donavan August 21, 2009 at 8:20 am - Reply

    Adrian I stumbled upon your blog a couple months ago and I have loved it since then. Your an amazing person and I think that is it totally stupid that some people can not believe who you are and who you say you are. I think some people think that if your an ab/dl its your life 24/7. Yet the truth is for the most of us out there its part of our life but we do have lives outside of it. You blog is amazing and when I see you have posted I come to the site and read it. Keep up the good work, from another Central Florida Ab/dl’er.

  22. Babyluke August 21, 2009 at 11:15 am - Reply

    There is always going to be someone who will complain and bitch. Simply put its not worth it to give them the satisfaction of giving them any notice. I like your bloggs and you seem nice.

  23. northcarolinadl August 21, 2009 at 11:19 am - Reply

    1. i think you just blew my mind on the second follow up thing…. while reading i had to say “what? huh? oooooooooooh” heh

    2. dont listen to others online. you know i had this same sort of problem when i first started in the community i got on to a webpage that i wont mention and i became one of the biggest contributors on there and people keep saying i was just a sales guy for a porn company. to this day i still dont know why i guess because i would post stuff bashing sites out there or something. you know whats real you know who you are and what your about that’s all that’s important you know.

    3. i read how you talked about meeting people around you and i can say out of all the people i have meet in this community you are one of the maybe 3 i would actually want to meet. your smart and every post lets us see into your world. i say that becuase i think it be safe. constantly you have to worry about the people your talking to in the community and well online in general. not sure where i am going here. you do us a service by posting this blog and keeping up with it.i for one am very thankful you do this. it makes me wish i had the bravery and the ability to do one myself.

    eh just don’t listen to those idiots your awesome.

  24. wildcat August 21, 2009 at 12:17 pm - Reply

    Like it’s been said, don’t worry about what people say and just keep posting what you feel. You probably help more people than you know. Most of the time it’s only the trouble makers that even speak up. I too find too many immature people on ab/dl sites so I am happy when I find mature people out on the net who share DL interests, it helps me feel more normal and not like a freak.

    Keep it up!

  25. Keith August 21, 2009 at 1:14 pm - Reply

    You must have really threatened someone’s sense of self-importance and security on the internet to have made them attack as they did! The most important thing in life, especially these days, is preservation of one’s career, income, and privacy. Unfortunately it may be a few more generations before AB’s, and DL’s are accepted as part of the population. So, ‘real-life’ (I dislike that term, because being a DL is part of my life) anonymity is important. Most employers would automatically plug in a weird sexual connection to an employee who openly talks about their diaper wearing, so… I must say that your blog has given me plenty of encouraging info, and I hope you calm down and leave the bigmouths (bullies?) in the dust. Hmm, that was almost a fatherly line.

  26. Chastity August 26, 2009 at 9:43 pm - Reply

    This will be the first time I have actually posted anything in regards to your blog. I’ve enjoyed reading a lot of your blog over the past year and your latest two blog entries I read after the fact of something happened on a forum I tend to troll for well, misconduct you could say. People pressing their ideas on others, or saying things that aren’t true, indulging into their fantasy beyond the healthy stages as to disregard their life as a whole for something that isn’t truly real. There was a boy who posted on a thread regarding someone wanting to be incontinent, which I don’t think is something to really strive for considering the reasons behind it. Having urge incontinence, I’ve often debated trying to become fully incontinent since I wear diapers all the time anyway. Still, there are those situations where having some level of control are very handy. The boy who “attacked” you said the following:

    “sometimes I question whether sites like iheartdiapers.com are actually real blogs written by the person in the picture. She’s totally incontinent, and says diapers are not a sexual turn on for her (she’s not a dl)….and yet claims how awesome it is to have a soiled diaper or wear in public with it noticeable. She has pics of her in onesies and stuff too….but never claims to be an AB? It does seem very suspicious when supposedly incontinent people go around saying how much they love diapers if they aren’t even dls.”

    Being someone who has appriciated your blog, I was quick to post the following once I read what he said;

    “She actually does say she is a DL and a little bit of an AB. She says that it depends on her mood what kind of purpose they play in her life (outside of her incontinence.) She does have blog posts about them being sexual at times too. She explains that she does enjoy a “messy” diaper at times because it’s very baby’ish (hence her saying she is a bit of an AB) but she only likes it for a little while, 15 – 20 mins. She is more of a, dress how she wants to dress, and doesn’t care what people think, rather than ‘dress with a point of showing her diaper.'”

    Just wanted you to know that you aren’t alone, and you have people out there who defend you, me being one of them. I’m open about my wearing diapers as well due to having urge incontinence and developmental arrest. I see no reason to hide who I am from my friends, but I don’t understand why so many people make such a big deal about diapers, to me, it’s just underwear. Being female, I often am barraged by males and find myself fighting for the right to be seen as more than an object that wears diapers. It can be very frustrating.

    Sincerely; Chastity

  27. wannagirl August 28, 2009 at 5:46 pm - Reply

    This may be a little off topic. But me and my husband have always enjoyed diapers for role play. we are now wanting to both become fully incontinent. does anyone have and tips on how to do this quick and easy? please help. all opinons will help.

  28. Jason September 4, 2009 at 1:04 am - Reply

    I don’t consider myself either an AB or a DL. I like wearing diapers, but not in the way you’d think an AB/DL likes them. There’s nothing sexual in my interests in diapers. I’m 36 yrs old and I need to wear diapers, not for medical reasons. At home, I wear cloth diapers and plastic pants, while I’m out and about, I wear disposable diapers. I’m not complaining, though. I’d rather wear diapers than wet my pants or my bed.

  29. Andy September 5, 2009 at 2:51 am - Reply


    This is only something I have heard works and have not seen proof, however it does seem plausable. When babies are being potty trained it is simply trying to tell them and get them to want to stay dry. All you need to do is do the opposite teach your body to want to let every go. I think this can be done by wearing 24/7 and as soon as you feel any hint of needing to go to the toilet you do it in your diaper straight away so your bladder and bowls never actually have to hold it in whilst you find a toilet. Eventually your body will get used to going as and when it needs to because you have told it that that is what you want. Unfortunately I don’t think its quick but its better than having an operation. Hats off to you for wanting to be incontinant, in a way I wish I was incontinant but it just wouldn’t suit my lifestyle 24/7. Let us know how you get on. Good luck.

  30. wannagirl October 18, 2009 at 1:47 am - Reply

    Well its been a while since i posted my question. To update on our desire, my husband loves this as do I. We began our want to be in diapers by drinking lots of water for the first week, this made us get used to peeing in ours diapers all the time and in different places. we never let ourselfs to hold anything in. When we felt like going then we went, no matter where we were. in the past two months I have managed to wake up wet every morningfor the past two weeks, and wet the diaper during the day with almost no feeling of having gone (I catch myself half way through). I now poop my diaper everyday and love it. I still feel the poop coming out and i have to help it quite abit. My husband has a little more of a problem. He is only waking up wet a few times a week. And he says he is having to really help his bowel movement to get out.
    We both love the feeling that a wet and messy diaper gives us. And our relationship has grown in trust and closeness. We have told each other that we will never go back to the overrated underwear. The bambino diapers we use are awesome, and i like the baby print diapers. We both also wear onesies when we go out to work or in town. They help to secure the fact that we are wearing a diaper.
    To anyone who wants to become completely dependant on diapers, I can say that it is a long road, but when you get to your destination it is an awesome feeling. And good luck to you. If you have any questions feel free to email me at [email protected]

  31. babyreaper2.0 October 23, 2009 at 4:57 pm - Reply

    hi, just read some of your blogs and i love it, and not in the prevy way the “doubters” believe. ignore them, to be honest who wants to expose themselves to the the entire world? for me, posting on webistes like this is a chance to be honest about this side of me and not worry about what my friends or family think. it’s a big part of my life but it’s not my entire life. keep up with the good work, simply protecting yourself does not make you a faker.

    cheers for the blog, babyreaper 2.0

  32. jobb December 4, 2009 at 8:52 am - Reply


    Moi, je suis seul, je suis un ABDL français qui habite à Toulouse et qui revendique le droit d’aimer porter des couches
    et des culottes plastiques et qui en a assez de se cacher. A la lecture de votre site, je me dis que mon rêve serait de partager cela avec une femme et qu’à 51ans c’est pas facile et pourtant je ne demande pas grand chose si ce n’est le bonheur. Merci de me lire un jour.

  33. Clare January 10, 2010 at 6:23 am - Reply

    I love your blog, and I have to wear nappies, consequent to a fall. I too have traces of DL and am quite AB. If you have to wear nappies/diapers, because of incontinence issues, why wouldn’t you enjoy your nappies, they allow you the freedom to operate as an independent adult., to live an active life. As for the critical folk, ignore them. This is a tasteful, interesting and basically just nice site. I personally believe you are female, but even if you where not, it still would be a great site. Thanks for making it available.

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