Many people have “questioned” why I blog and say the things that I say. Some people find it hard to believe that a 20 something year old girl that actually has a life chooses to come onto a blog and tell complete strangers and a male dominated group about her life and happenings. I would say a lot of it comes out of jealousy to be quite honest. I am not trying to “toot my own horn” but the reality is that many of those that say things like this look at my situation and since they do not have it, they automatically assume its not real or fake. It is unfortunate but seems to be a large part of some people’s psyche. There are a lot of things that I do not have or that other people have that they love about their life that seems out of reach to me but I do not sit there and say that it is untrue. I am sure there are some other reasons for people to question why a girl that wears diapers comes onto a blog and reveals so much about her life. Probably some of them include the fact that this is the internet and some people just don’t trust others (understandable), some people think they “know” girls (lol), and some people probably just think they are “good” at picking out bullshit. Anytime anyone does these to me, its extremely laughable to me. Don’t get me wrong – it may seem like I reveal a lot about myself but in reality I do leave out revealing factors about me, certain happenings, etc. that would completely expose me, what I do, where I work, etc etc…so I guess some things don’t seem to add up to people sometimes because quite frankly they don’t LOL. I include snippets of my life, not my WHOLE life. I change names of others a lot of times, exclude names of local places, etc because I can’t reveal everything unfortunately.

Anyways, the main reason I do what I do on this blog is because it is a way for me to express a lot of my inner-feelings about diaper related things.  I am a very emotional person and diapers are an emotional, spiritual, mental, and physical part of my life.  I can’t exactly release all my thoughts and emotions about diapers and adult baby type stuff in the real world so I blog.  Some people wonder what I could possibly get from every once and a while spilling the beans about a messy diaper happening or something like that…well here is the reason so many of you have been waiting for: I find the notion and idea of certain things like messing in my diaper, wetting my diaper, diaper changes, diapers in public, etc to be quite exciting even after so many years…especially after embracing the whole diaper lover thing and becoming involved.  Yeh, yeh – it happens everyday and I should be immune to it all – but that is just not the case for me.  No matter how you spin it, wearing diapers is “different” then the norm in society unfortunately…so its hard to completely forget about diapers in every aspect of my life even though it is so second nature.  So, sometimes it builds up and I just want to talk about it and express some of the adrenaline rushing events that happen in my life.  Plain and simple.  Some things that happen to me are second nature but to some of you probably would not be and would be exciting.

My personality is very forward.  I have always been that way.  I have to find a way to express myself on certain things and really there is not too many ways to express yourself in diaper related things in my case unless its to Peter basically so this is my main outlet.  Other reasons are still big and they include helping others, showing people that not everyone in the ABDL community is crazy, interacting with people, etc.  There are good people in the world and I try to be one of them.  I am not perfect as many close to me will tell you but just realize that while some of the things I say or do may seem far-fetched to you, that does not mean they aren’t true or something like that.  I try to address things that are beneficial to others a lot of times and help them see the “light” per se.  I will NEVER just flat out lie on this blog on purpose because that is just not me…so I choose to leave some things out sometimes which if YOU (the reader) had that information some things might “add” up on some things a bit better.  But, I can’t always give you every tid bit of my life..

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  1. Bill April 1, 2010 at 1:35 pm - Reply


    Let the scoffers go and do their thing – they are shallow and not worth the energy.

    I recently (with in the last year) began having night time accidents due to Diabetes and some complications. I began wearing poor quality disposables, now cloth. I am trying the Bambino brand and like them very much. Your blog has helped me and my wife come to positive terms with my accidents and the solution of wearing a diaper at night along with pants and a mattress cover.

    Thank you and please do not ever stop this blog.

    Oh have you ever investigated diabetics and how many of us become incontinent?


  2. Todd April 1, 2010 at 1:47 pm - Reply

    Keep doing what you’ve been doing. I love your blog!

  3. moostermiley April 1, 2010 at 2:00 pm - Reply

    Just keep on being the person you are. Don’t ever change a thing.
    Don’t let those idiots mess up your life…they’re the ones that are messed up.

  4. Joe April 1, 2010 at 3:51 pm - Reply

    Maybe it scares some people that theres a very real, very strong person who runs this site. I dont think everybody has the ability to find the little things in life as enjoyable as others. Def just keep doing things your way, the people who get it will stick around for you.

  5. Hinck April 1, 2010 at 4:42 pm - Reply

    For many people in todays world, the only way to build themselves up is by tearing others down. You find this often in politics.
    It happens on the internet also. To the extreme edge of the ABDL world you pose a threat. Your reality is better than their fantasy and since they can’t attain what you have they have to tear yours down. How dare you be actually positive with what life has dealt you.
    By reading your blog I have gained a lot of respect for you. Yes, you have to maintain a level of privacy for yourself and Peter. If somebody were to say you weren’t even using your real names that wouldn’t make any difference.
    You have said that people wouldn’t recognize you if they met you in real life. That’s a good thing. Just keep doing what you are doing.

  6. babystevie April 1, 2010 at 8:15 pm - Reply

    I think to some people things that seem too good to be true then it must be. I think to a certain extent there should be a level of trust. I do not feel I need to know all the details about someone just cause it is the internet. I think those people are shallow.
    We all have real lives and jobs, and information that is available on the internet can have negative effects.
    But on the other hand it does feel good to get a good discussion going, and talk about all of these feelings and emotions we have as adult babies or diaper lovers. I have spent the better part of my life trying to get comfortable with this side of myself. It is wonderful to get to read and hear how others deal with their feelings and emotions. Thank you very much.

    The other perspective I have is, as far as I know, that you are not profiting that I can see from having this blog. What incentive is there for you to continue this blog if you are not who you say you are. Maybe it is a bit niavity on my part. But again I really love coming on this blog and reading what you post. It is something I look forward to when I am on the computer. Thank you again.

  7. little-fox-boy April 1, 2010 at 10:43 pm - Reply

    this i know is coincidental, but it seems this topic is way serious for the date.

  8. Jks16 April 2, 2010 at 7:14 am - Reply

    Don’t let them get you down. You are doing a good thing here by saying, hey it is ok to be in diapers! People who really need to hear that message are going to hear it. You have already helped a lot of people by posting your thoughts. Every person you help is worth more than all the trolls combined.
    And don’t worry about not going into your personal life. it is your life, and I understand why you wound want to protect it. I do the same thing.

  9. GlennDL April 2, 2010 at 5:17 pm - Reply

    That’s why we all love you Adrian. You’re one of us!

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  11. TinLizzie April 3, 2010 at 2:15 am - Reply

    Thank you for sharing with us, Adrian! I enjoy reading your posts and the responses of our fellow diaper-wearers.

    I can understand the issues you are addressing here, and I respect you all the more for being concerned about them.

  12. Hugo April 3, 2010 at 10:18 am - Reply

    Respect! Thats all my mates! 🙂 XXOO

  13. anewbys April 4, 2010 at 3:06 pm - Reply


    I know I’ve told you before but just know that your blog helps me immensely, and obviously you are of great help and inspiration to others. What I love about your blog is that it is real. You’re a real person, living a real life, who is gracious enough to share with the rest of us, regardless of how much you keep to yourself (rightly so). I honestly don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t have your blog to help me with my own problems, to at least know I’m not alone. Thank you for all you do Adrian!!

  14. Crinkly April 5, 2010 at 12:23 am - Reply

    Adrian, I understand exactly how you feel about the experience of wearing diapers and the inevitable things that go with it to be exciting, and the building up of thoughts and emotions that you want to express to others. I think it’s awesome and am glad that you are willing to do so. It’s awesome that you’ve embraced having to wear diapers, and are willing to share your thoughts and assorted happenings with the cyber world. I share many of those same views from time to time, and love reading your blog entries. You rock.

  15. Mike April 5, 2010 at 4:32 pm - Reply

    You don’t know all the people you help out with making this normal by talking aloud about it. Please continue on and don’t take the nay sayers seriously. There is a ton of underlying people who heart diapers and never post anywhere but read your experiences and feel alot less lonely with this fetish/need.
    Thank you for taking the time , it can’t always be easy to post your diary online for the world to see

  16. erfie59 April 6, 2010 at 12:55 pm - Reply

    Adrian, I open your website up everyday to read what you have to say about wearing diapers. As Mike above says, you honestly don’t know how many people you are helping by providing your thoughts, views and real life experiences for those of us who really love diapers. Don’t let anyone tell you any different and please keep it up.

  17. TinLizzie April 7, 2010 at 12:46 am - Reply

    I’m seening lots of luv here, girl. Please don’t give it up because of a few sour grapes. We all want you to succeed, and anytime you would like a hand, I’m sure lots of us would leap at the chance to help you in your endeavours. Keep the faith!

  18. Cloth Diaper Covers June 29, 2010 at 1:20 pm - Reply

    It’s important to let people they’re not alone, some people struggle with this and feel like they’ve become a outcast in modern society. I think that it’s great your sharing your life experiences with everyone so people can learn from your adventures and what happens to you.

  19. Jeff January 9, 2011 at 11:58 am - Reply

    I’ve been wearing diapers since I can’t remember. I think they are the greatest invention, and I think it feels great to poop and pee in them. I hope I wear diapers untill the day I die.

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